Christian DD Group Advice

Part Time DD?

When I first uncovered my desire for a DD life, I thought the words "Are you ready for a spanking?" would be just what I was looking for. The more I hear those words lately, the more they anger me. Not because they are a prelude to a painful encounter or that I feel that a spanking is not deserved, but because these words are not preceded by any explanation as to why a spanking is coming or due. There is no warning. There is no mindset. These words only come out after a week or more of any misbehavior being ignored, of me feeling neglected, of me having my feelings hurt over and over and over again as I believe that this lifestyle (that he claims to want too) is ignored over and over again.

Yes, I want him to be the leader of our home, and yes I want this lifestyle. I truly do and he says that he does too.  Where do my feelings and needs fall within his leadership though?  Am I supposed to just stand back and be okay with the fact that something is spankable one day, but not the next time? Am I supposed to be okay with me following our agreement to journal my behavior each day and having it ignored?  How am I supposed to respond when he thinks that a spanking will fix everything and reset things between us yet there's no discussion involved?

We used to sit down and evaluate each week about how things were going and we would talk about anything we felt needed to be addressed in the coming week. We discussed successes and failures and I really felt like we were connected during those times, but even that has fallen to the wayside.

Several times in the past few months, we have sat down and tried to start over, but that usually lasts 2 days or so and then nothing happens for a week or more. So, I just don't know how I'm supposed to believe that this is a life we are going to have.

Even though we can research and read online and talk to others who live this life and develop a “head knowledge,” can we really make this life works if only one of us is putting their hearts in it? Is head knowledge enough or do we need heart knowledge for it to be a fully effective and fulfilling lifestyle??  Can I or should I just be happy for part-time DD?

April

Too Well Behaved?

My husband and I just celebrated our 30th anniversary. We are, however, very new to the DD lifestyle.  He realizes my need to submit to him as the head of our household, and he also admits that he finds spanking me very erotic. My husband doesn't feel that I ever do anything that really deserves a spanking.  He has suggested that we spank just for erotic reasons and skip the DD part altogether.  I am confused about how I feel about this.  I  don't think that is what I want but  am at a loss as to how to convey my feelings to him.  I feel like he is just not "getting it."  I do not want to discourage him, he is really trying to explore this new aspect of our lives.

He works in another state most weeks, Monday through Friday and we still have one adult child currently living with us temporarily which makes things more difficult.  This situation will change in a couple of months with either me moving to be with him or him coming home to work permanently.

Should I let him lead in this and see where it goes or speak up now?

Thanks for your help.

L

Do We Have to Spank?

My husband and I want to practice DD. We go to a conservative church where traditional values are respected. We have no idea if any couple that we know uses spanking, but I have never heard it even suggested.

Alot of the "ideas" of DD make sense to us. There are times that I feel the need to "pay" for my actions, but we are not comfortable with the idea of spanking. Can we still do or use DD?

From Roberta

A Thing of the Past?

My husband is in seminary to be a music minister and
I noticed that he doesn't spank me like he used to. I
don't know what to do?!? I love him with or with out
discipline, but to be honest I really want it in my
life. Does any one have advice?

Spanks Too Hard?

Dear Group,

After a lot of discussion and prayer, my husband and I adopted a DD lifestyle.  We talked about this openly before we were married, and made the decision then.  Unlike a lot of the other women I read about, this was more at his urging than mine.  I am pretty sure his brother spanks his wife too so I think it was something he was more used to. My dad was very old-fashioned too and I was spanked growing up, well into my teen years so it was not something new to me.

I was always attracted to him because of his dominant personality and I realized that there were definite things in my behavior that would hurt our marriage and that I should work on. 

At first, everything worked like I guess I thought it should.  It did do everything "as promised,"  I felt closer to him, and felt that the threat of a spanking... and the reality ... really did help me focus.  We also started doing some "play" spanking and I loved that.  I felt loved cherished and protected.

But things have really fallen apart for us lately and the reason is me.  In a way, spanking worked too well.  It's gone from something that brings us together to something that I am really afraid of.  So afraid that I will do anything I can to avoid one.  Including lying to him about things so I don't get in trouble.  I have gotten two speeding tickets in the last six months and have not told him about either.  I tell fibs constantly about stuff he's asked me to do and I haven't done.

I know that part of it is that I *think* he spanks very hard.  When it's punishment, it's always bare bottom with a wooden paddle. He won't use his hand because he says his hand is for love and affection, not correction.  I know this is traditional and I accept that, but the paddle even though it is small, just hurts so much.  (I think some of it is that when we were discussing this before we were married, and I agreed to it, I sort of compared it to what I knew from home.  My dad spanked, but it was with his hand and always through clothes. It was a few whacks and more symbolic than anything I guess.  But bare-bottom hurts so much more that I can't stand it.)  I am always sobbing by the time it's over and feel very sick.  Yet compared to what some other ladies say they get I don't think it's too much.  I never have bruises, just a very sore red bottom for a few hours, which he says is not too much.  He says I'm a grown woman and my butt can take a lot and that if he just gave me a few "paddy cakes" I wouldn't learn anything.  In a way I think he's right, but I know I don't want it.

We have talked about and prayed about it, and he says it's because I haven't really submitted to his judgment.  That he would never really hurt me, but that we decided together before we were married that spanking would be something that was used, and now it's my duty to submit to it.  But all I know is that I have come to hate this, yet I want him to be happy and I really do feel that I did agree and promise before God to obey him.  He's agreed to consider using other discipline too, like writing lines, but when he assigned something like that to me lately, I felt so resentful, I just hated it.   He grounded me recently from the computer, and I couldn't wait to sneak on as soon as he went to work.  When he got home I lied about that too. 

I think really he's right.  I don't want to submit. I know that if we didn't have this relationship, I would NOT feel this resentful towards him.  If I could just say ( like some of my friends do) "Hey I got another speeding ticket.  Oh well."  and that's the end, it would be fine. 

I never should have agreed to any arrangement where I was expected to submit, but I do love him and don't want a divorce!  Help, what do I do?